The not so womanly things in me

This is a tag that I'm picking up and here it goes:

1) I do not visit the beauty parlour. Infact, I've visited the parlour only for my wedding.

2) I wonder how people use lipsticks, eyelines, mascaras, day in and day out. I dont have a wee bit interest in them. I dont wear high heels. Dont own more than 2 pairs of sandals at a time.

3) I'm a casual dresser. I dont concenterate too much on what I wear or how I look.

4) I have driven a vehicle (TVS50 to be excat) with 4 people in the pillion seat.

5)I was the official grocery buyer, provision buyer, etc.Have not eneterd kitchen before marriage.

6) Have travelled alone, in buses whose name boards I couldnt read, in buses where I was the only female travelling, boarded and travelled in a train from Delhi to my native without a ticket!!

7) I cringe to take money from Hd. I would rather not buy anything for myself if I cannot afford it, than using his money in indulging for the same.

8) I dont use handbags. Have always used wallets meant to be used by men. Dont own womanly purses.

9) Get angry very often (i think traditionally, its the privilege of men to get bouts of anger every now and then).

10) I have a loud voice,i should make conscious effort to speak softly or should be admist starngers so that the vocal chords dont open up too much.

11) During my childhood, have been adamant to wear pattu pavadai and my parents (dad especially) have cajoled me very hard to make me accept to wear the long skirt. Have preferred boyish dresses during primary years. And now, (4 kazhutha vayasu ana appuram), I yearn to wear pattu pavadai, half skirt for which I'm too old now.

12) I'm not a compulsive shopper, and cant retain interest in shopping for more than an hour or max two.

It pricks, it haunts..

Yes, everytime someone passes on some shloka, asking my mom to go look out for some horoscope reader, go to some temples, do this and do that, it hurts, it pricks a, it haunts, it sends in a tremor in me..even when I'm placating myself that everything is happening for good, and God will bless me with a child and I need to just put all my burdens on Him and just Trust Him, when people around comment /talk/suggest,it becomes natural for me to get into a depressive mood, to doubt, to ask if I will be blessed, to have a rough conversation with God as to why cant he open his eyes, what sims did i do to go through all this, why cant he forgive my sins ..

I'm quite happy that many in the blogsphere are going to be second time mommy's and I long to join their club.

There is a tag that I want to do myself: 30 thinsg to do before 30, but for now I would like to start with 5 thinsg to do before i turn 30:
1) Become a mother
2) Juggle work , home and kids with the right attitude and maturity
3) Become an expert cook who can cook deliciously (me thinks I already cook healthy food, so not specifically including it here) for kid, husband, mil , parents and sis
4) Mould myself and not worry too much about future, live in the present and enjoy the present.
5) Indulge myself in some materialistic stuff (which I havent done so far !)

Anyone is willing to take up this tag , rather re-do this tag again and check if theire opinions/preferences have changed with time.